antipucky

I've been thinking about this for a while . . . my constant, incessant whining about the condition of my life. It's getting old, isn't it? I think so. But what can I do about it? I can accept things, but that doesn't necessarily make me happy, does it?

I'm not sure what to do. I know my attitude is 90% of my problems, and yeah, life has delt me a lot of shit over the last year or so . . . and further developments have only served to pile the shit on higher . . . but still . . . it bothers me that I have forgotten who I am, and that I have chosen to define myself in terms of the relationship only. If that makes sense.

This begins a new phase for this journal. It's the place I'm going to talk about this stuff . . . things about my healing process . . . stick around if you want . . . I'm going to try to put a bit more of the "pucky" back in Heypucky . . . whatever it takes.